August 6th

Today I faxed over my medical records and within an hour I got a call that they had received my records. Yay! Then the lady on the phone explained to me that the earliest she could have me talk to the doctor would be Monday, August 6th at 1PM!!! I explained that this appointment was WAY better than oh.....October 4th!! So we are moving along and I am pretty excited to hear what he has to say about everything in my medical record. I can't wait! This new chapter of our lives keeps getting better and better!

I just had to update :)

Finally! The package we have been waiting for!!

I sent for my medical records as soon as we found out about our negative. I knew they had time to give them to us by law but I never knew it would take sooooooo long! Finally, today they were in our mailbox! I felt like a kid a Christmas time. I ripped open the package and right in front of me was pages and pages of my medical record. I sat down and started flipping through the pages. I wanted to get to the "juicy" stuff. I was able to view documents that I didn't physically see but was told. It is so interesting to see this kind of stuff. While flipping I ran through the two expanded blasts we have frozen. My heart dropped. I was on the other couch and I said "Sarah! Our babies!" She jumped up and there we were looking at the pictures they had taken. It was so nice to see expanded blasts. Two beautiful blasts on ice.

So as soon as I got through my records I called our new facility and explained that I finally got my records! They said that as soon as I fax them over tomorrow they will set a phone consultation with the doctor within the next two weeks! YAY! This means our October 4th phone call got pushed up! Yes, I am one happy girl! We are still planning on waiting to start because we want to prepare our selves.

Oh, and in other news we are moving houses! We live in California and right now buying a house is just out of the question for us right now. We want to but we would like to wait. So in the mean time we are renting and now its not the cheapest thing in California but I wouldn't trade it for the world! So we were walking one day and saw one of our neighbors was moving and one thing led to another and we are packing our household up! We are officially moving down two houses! Its a bigger home and we gain a bathroom. We like the yard better especially since we have a dog so for us its a big difference! So August is going to be a busy month with the packing of our old house and moving to the new house.

How is everyone else doing!? I am so sorry I have been absent I promise to be better!

Till next time,

Back from our mini-vacation & fertility update

Well, were back from our very mini-vacation! We went to Disneyland because we just needed to get out of here and just not have a care in the world. I know many think that going to a theme park is not the most relaxing vacation ever and it may not be, but for us it was a blast! We left on Thursday afternoon and made the 5 hour drive to Anaheim, California. We arrived around 10:30 due to the lovely California traffic and checked into our hotel. Got right on the bed and fell right to sleep. Bright and early we got up both days we were there and we spent 12 hours at both parks each day. By the end of the second day I literally told Sarah if they needed to amputate my feet I was pretty sure I wouldn't feel a thing. My legs felt pretty numb all day long and it was worst when we waited in line and I don't think it helped when the new Cars ride took 4 hours of standing!! We did not once think about anything fertility. It was great to get our minds off of things!!

We got back home on Sunday evening and it was back to our normal routine on Monday. My Monday morning consisted of getting our fertility "stuff" in order. In the past couple of months I have met a great individual. Name I would like to keep confidential for her privacy but nonetheless she has been great help for me. She has gone through the IVF facility we plan on going with and has been there with any question I have and most important she was able to talk to our doctor and he is going to try and get us in earlier than our October phone consultation! How awesome is this?! So I ordered my medical records from our old RE and I am still waiting for them to arrive. I called to see where they were and the front desk was rude and said they were not even copied yet. UGH! One more reason why I am happy we are transferring. I called our new facility and talked to the coordinator and a nurse about any questions I have. They made sure as soon as they get my records I will be able to get a phone consult! 

Sarah and I have both decided that we would like to talk to the doctor earlier so we can learn what I can do to have a more successful cycle. We have also decided that we wont start until October/November. We want to make sure we are "prepared" both physically, mentally and financially. I want to get my body ready, as much as we can. 

These past couple of weeks I feel like we got back to our normal selves. The past couple of months was all geared towards our IVF cycle and took a lot out of us. We didn't go out on dates and fun was a blast from the past. We were so concentrated on what was in front of us. Don't get me wrong its good to be focused and concentrated but to a degree. We were breathing and eating IVF. This time around I don't want to put all my energy towards it. I want to just live our normal day to day life and go to our doctors appointments like its just another appointment. Things are going to be different, a good different!

Were going to leave you with some photos of us from our trip :)

Getting ready for Disneyland!

Our first "drink" since we started our fertility journey! Oh it was SO delicious!

I truly believe in this <3

Love of my life <3

Lots of love!

Mini vacation

As soon as we got our negative we knew we needed to just get away even if it was thirty minutes away. Sometimes you just have to leave everything you were dealing with behind and not have a care in the world. After much thought we decided to go somewhere we could have fun and be care free. So on Thursday afternoon we will be driving five hours to Disneyland!! What a better place! After all they say its the happiest place on earth! Any of our family or friends who know us really well know that we are deep down Disney freaks. Well at least me. I hate to admit it lol.

Other than our mini vacation we are still on track with our eating clean lifestyle. It has been hard but every time we get frustrated and want to go for that chocolate chip cookie we think about the baby we really want and the healthy couple we want to be.

We ordered my medical records from my old facility and im pretty excited to get them and read them through. Only four more months until our appt. Before we know it October will be here and we will be ready to go!

Baby dust to all!

The countdown begins

This means its time to get myself and Sarah ready for our appointment which is four months away. At first we were bummed it was so far out but now we are happy its that far out. It gives us enough time to save money for a 2 cycle plan and loose weight. I know this is something that needs to be done.

I have struggled with my weight since I was little. I never knew what it was like to be at a healthy weight growing up and growing up in a Mexican household with yummy food all the time and everywhere did not make it any easier. So weight has been a struggle. I have been on diet yo-yo for what seems like forever. Well, im tired of being on this train. I need to change for myself, us and the soon to be family we want. I want to go into this next IVF cycle feeling better with myself and feeling healthy. We tried to loose weight for our first IVF and I lost 10 pounds but I gained it all back with the dang bloat and meds. This time around I want to go into this IVF even more prepared.

This weekend is going to be super busy we are cleaning Sarah's moms house and saving every bit of money we get from that and in the next couple of weeks were going to have a garage sale. All proceeds go to our IVF fund! Just going to keep going and saving and having fun :)

Hope all is well!

Moving Forward

We would like to say "Thank you" to all of the support from everyone. You are all awesome and your comments mean the world to both Sarah and I. These past couple of days have been a learning experience between both of us and our future goals. We have learned that letting go of the past is crucial in growing, but that is easier said than done. The past always has ways of replaying in our minds. I want to close this chapter of our book and start a fresh new one.

After much talk we decided we are not going to do the frozen embryo transfer and instead transfer facilites. You may be thinking....what the heck is going on?! There have been some kinks in this journey and we thought that they would go away but they keep coming back. The clinic we went with was not the best. They were not patient oriented and getting through them was like trying to find a needle in a haystack. On top of it we felt like there was zero communication between the doctor/embrologist and us. They never called us to tell us how many eggs had fertilized instead the nurse did and on the day of the transfer we never spoke with the embrologist. Most frusturating was the fact that after our BFN they told us the next available appointment was a month away! How in the heck do they expect us to wait that long to figure out why we failed our first IVF?! No thanks! We even emailed our RE and still no response five days later...poor service. I have called three times and left three messages. Why do I have to keep trying? No more!

So, we decided that we want to go with a clinic that has a higher success rate with IVF. There cycles are more pricey but worth it. A clinic we should have gone with in the first place. We plan on transferring our frozen embryos to the new clinic and using them there as well. So no wasting here! We don't regret anything in fact we learned from all of this. Sometimes you have to go through bumps in the road. We grew from this experience.

So we don't have our phone consultation appointment until October 4th. And our first physical appointment on December 18th. Yes, I know its months away but this gives us time to save money and time to get ready.

We plan on getting healthier in the mix because we all know that these hormones made me bloat/gain weight.

We are super excited to start a fresh, new chapter! Thank you all for following us on our journey!