Tuesday, September 25, 2012

Say it isn't so????

This morning my lovely wife received this wonderful text from me....

Yep, your reading that correctly! I started my period!!! YAY!!! 

I was so excited that I literally jumped up and down in the bathroom!! Thank goodness I was the only one in the bathroom because I would have been rather embarrassed. Best thing about it all was that I didn't have to do any crazy silly thing like massage my stomach or drink kale to start my period. It just came! Maybe I dreamed about it last night, lol!

Monday, September 24, 2012

I wonder....is it possible?

Remember when Charlie Brown was sitting in his class…looking at the clock, waiting for the bell. Wah, Wah, Wah, Wah… Well I feel exactly how Charlie Brown felt waiting for the bell to ring as I wait for my period to start.

I remember the discussion the nurse made sure she had with me was that my period would not be the same after an IVF cycle. At the time I didn't care, I mean what do we care about other than getting pregnant. I remember having to sign a waiver that there was a possibility of developing cancer because of the IVF meds. I signed that waiver like it was nothing. I thought as I signed it "yes, I would get cancer if that meant we had kids". I would do virtually anything to have our family. Well as soon as our failed IVF cycle ended I got my period within two weeks. BAM it was like a hurricane, it was heavy and so uncomfortable. I was happy nonetheless. Then August rolled around and BAM I got another period heavy but not so miserable. Well, here we are in September and nothing, nada, zilch. I remember being a kid and wishing I didn't have a period...I mean who didnt?! Now I am praying to get my period!!

Now I am nervous...why hasn't my period started. Is there anything to make it start faster?

Trust me I did the research....and it gave me options such as drinking lots of water, drinking lots of kale, massaging my stomach, jumping up and down and much more. Okay, call me crazy but I want this to get going....so yes I will be trying more of these as soon as I get home. I have never, ever, ever skipped a period in my entire life, ever. So this for me is a shock....even though I was warned....yeah, yeah.

I keep feeling cramps....maybe they are real or maybe they are fake played by my evil mind.

Well I got to get back to work!

Greetings from worry girl who hasn't started her dang period!

Wednesday, September 19, 2012

Life is great!

We have sure been keeping busy within our household. We have not even thought about anything IVF. I lost track of how many days we had until our first IVF appointment with our new clinic. I want to make sure this time around we don't wrap ourselves around IVF like its our entire life. I want to be able to live our life and be normal. Im scared crap less though because I feel as soon as we start to wet our feet in the process I won't be able to not think about it. I pray for peace through this next cycle. 

Today we got another call from our facility making sure we were set for October 4th. They have such a LONG waiting list that they call everyone over and over to make sure no one cancels and if someone does they can replace that appointment with another client. I totally think this is fantastic that they do this! I replied with a "heck yes" we are ready!! Which then reminded me to take out my calendar and look at October 4th. I counted the days....15 days! Yikes!! Time sure is flying by!

Last weekend we decided to get out and go to the city for some fun! We live so close to San Francisco and have meaning to visit the California Academy of Science. It was a blast to say the least!! It brought back a part of us I haven't seen in some time...our care free selves. 

Life is good! I couldn't and wouldn't ask for any other life to live, honestly. No matter what trials and tribulations we are given we are facing them together and that is the best thing I could ever ask for. Bring it world!! Were ready or the fight and the journey!!

I never thought I would want and pray for my period to start, LOL!

Sunday, September 9, 2012

Baby Shower

Awhile back we had been invited to one of Sarah's old time friends baby shower. At first, I was super excited I had imagined myself pregnant at the baby shower after all we had been invited before we had even started our IVF treatment. I had forgotten about the baby shower until a couple of weeks later when I was going through my "junk drawer" (because we all know everyone has one) and noticed the invitation. It was soooo cute laced in pink my heart sank. It brought back memories of how we were not pregnant yet. I know its been more than two months since our failed IVF cycle but it still sometimes seems so fresh in my brain, so fresh in our brains.

We RSVP and before you knew it we were shopping for a baby gift at Babies "R" Us. The last time we had stepped foot in that store was when we had first started our TTC journey. We wanted to go and look at all the baby stuff, not knowing anything we would soon face. Not knowing that in fact the TTC is not as easy as we thought it would be. I entered the store and all at once I felt excitement, joy, happiness, sadness and loneliness. I wanted to buy everything in sight, I pictured us registering for our showers and what crib we would pick. We both stood between the strollers and car seats and hugged each other. We didn't even have to speak to each other we knew exactly what was being thought. We know our time will come and when that time comes that baby or babies will be the best thing to ever happen to us, our blessings.

The baby shower was beautiful filled great food and fun games and beautiful decorations!! There were so many personal touches it was just beautiful and the creative me just loves that about a party!

The basket I made was a hit along with the swing we purchased. I love parties and I love wrapping gifts. Call me crazy but I guess it's a stress reliever for me. Sarah laughs but shes grateful she doesn't have to worry about it, lol!


The games were awesome! I love baby shower games they are always so much fun. We both know that we are both very competitive people so I told Sarah that I will win a prize! I just have to, LOL!


I won! LOL! 

And the prize you ask?!

OK, so I was SUPER excited to have won this gift!! Reason being was that is a microwaveable heating pad. Not only is it super cute, but its a heating pad! I remember that after my egg retrieval I was in lots of pain and I complained because I didn't have a heating pad. Well guess what!? I got one now!! Is this a sign or what?!

On top of this being a sign, a wonderful lady came up to us and started talking about how she has abilities to see the future. She commented on the fact that we are TTC and that we are going to have a boy. I have a hard time believing people like this but I know Sarah does. I was just happy that she sees a baby in the future.

Well were off to bed!

Friday, September 7, 2012

My inner kid

I honestly feel like a little kid in a candy store excited to be picking from a wide selection of candy! I can't help but start feeling excited for our new patient appointment. I already feel welcome and at home. They are all so awesome and just so personable.

Today I was having a really rough day at work and I got a call towards the end of my day from the coordinator to let me know that she had emailed me earlier this morning confirming our change in appointment. I hadn't checked my email all day and after hanging up the phone I sat at my desk opened my email and looked at the email. 

This email made me smile! Now if only we could sleep until our appointment!

Till next time!

Thursday, September 6, 2012

28 More days!

This is how many days we have until our very first appointment with our new RE! Initially we had our appointment for October 30th which was a Tuesday and I wanted to make sure Sarah could make the appointment. I don't want to be with out her, lol. So I called the office and asked if there was any way possible to move the appointment to a Wed-Friday appointment. The office lady assured me that was the best they could give me and I was not complaining just trying. After all their waiting list is now booked until July of 2013! All I can say is "are you kidding me?!" I am so glad we were able to get in earlier!

The front lady told me she was going to see if she could do anything. I wasn't expecting anything that day and within a couple of hours she called me to tell me she could grant our wish! She not only moved our appointment to a Thursday but she moved it up to the beginning of the month! October 4th baby!!! So this means that once we meet with him on that day we can start with that period in October!! Are you for real?! I need someone to pinch me!

We are SO ready to get this started again, ready to just be back. Tune in for more updates!

Lots of love!

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