Monday, October 1, 2012

My heart is beating fast, and my hands feel like clams

I can't even began to tell you the emotions I am feeling at the moment. I told myself I wasn't going to act any different this time around. I wanted to go into this next IVF like it was nothing....just another appointment, but now the past couple of days my body has been feeling an extent of emotions! I have been feeling.....excited, happy, nervous, scared, blessed and lucky. This is the same feeling I felt when I had a big school presentation. I feel like I am going to give a big speech in front thousands of people. My heart is racing, so fast. "Breathe Lexi, breathe". I am ready to get this going, I am ready to be parents. I know it will all pan out the way we want it, its the waiting part that's killer.

This afternoon I went to lunch with a co-worker and we were talking about all of our fertility stuff and she started asking me about everything and telling me her husband keeps putting off having kids. She kept telling me they want to make sure they have enough money...blah, blah blah. I simply told her to take it from me you are never, EVER ready to have a child. Having a child is a life lesson that you won't have any idea what it entails until you dive in head first. You are never prepared, plain and simple. I let her know many think its easy and while many get pregnant at the snap of a finger others don't. Sitting here at two years we are getting geared up for our next step of our crazy journey. I guess we all are naive at some point in this journey, I know for sure we were. 

Only three more days!


ivfover40 said...

Three days! I'm so excited!

Mina said...

I'm very excited for you both!

And you are right, you will never be completely prepared. You just need to take the plunge, and everything will fall into place when it is meant to. Everyone worries, but we all make it work when the time comes! :)

Lexi + Sarah said...

Thank you all! We are getting pretty excited!!

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